Sex done right is largely a mental sport. So combining psychology with sex could shoot you to the fucking moon. Elite hedonism, baby.
I think most people’s desires of notable achievement only persist with such strength because they haven’t yet fleshed out many details for their own desires of deep human connection. The meaning & lifestyle that can be built upon customized emotional connection are almost always far more pleasurable than that which is built upon achievement. However, achievement is so celebrated in our culture, so people will always be blinded by it, while their most potent pleasures and sources of happiness lie hidden & dormant within their own subconscious. Yeah, I’m personally talking to you.
With many things, knowing it is not being it. I understood the end concept of raw personal identity a year ago, however, I did not know what it would be like to truly become it. Looking back, I couldn’t have become this version of myself without burning the boats behind me. To permanently penetrate this deep into my subconscious and find the forbidden fruits of my true personal essence would not have happened otherwise. Now, there’s no fruit that I have a taste for other than my own personal forbidden fruit. 
A strong mutual fetish between lovers can really help keep things fresh & potent in the connection. This is the same dynamic of platonic friends who share a hobby/passion that they both strongly love and can directly engage in together for fun. Tennis junkie? Yeah, me too.
For fun, I’d like to try having face to face conversations with other people while wearing earplugs. That would be hilarious!! 
If you have the balls to publicize just about every key characteristic of who you actually are as a human being (personality, identity, psychology, desires, fetishes, kinks, etc), then you will seriously increase the rejection received from the majority of others. BUTT, however, you will simultaneously accelerate yourself light years ahead with discovering & deeply connecting with the precise type of unique people that love & get off on all the customized experiences of life that you do within yourself. Your soulmates, if you please. Finding & living a transcendent life with them is worth experiencing all the world’s rejection. But you’ve got to put your most potent shit out there for this to happen. One life. I’m game. Bring it on bitches!! 
So within the standard monogamous relationship model of attraction, people usually first ensure that the other person loves them and is committed to them, before they pull out the kinks & fetishes that they were too afraid to expose & request upfront. Most of the time, these people who are now together aren’t going to be a match on this deeper, more potent level of sexuality.
As a hedonist who’s into alternative sexuality, this is way too big of a pitfall to risk personal relationships & years of life on. So I have to be upfront & open about my fetishes & desires with girlfriends. I’m not at all into the fakeness of professional society anymore, and I’m not at all into long-term monogamy. So it makes real strategic sense to even go so far as to publicize all the kinky details of my alternative sexual desires and to just wear it all openly & proudly. This shit is extremely core to my life’s happiness, so it will serve as an effective filter, drawing out the people I should & shouldn’t care about or invest myself in.
It is soon going to get really edgy & wet up in this crazy bitch!
Seriously, what’s with all the 11:11s that I’ve been seeing this year?? It’s getting pretty fucking ridiculous at this point!!
Have you ever heard a person seriously say “time is money” and mean it? Yeah, that’s true if you make your money from your personal labor, which is by nature limited to your time. Us capital workers operate in a special world where “money is money” and our time is not hardwired into it. Want to join this elite club? Or are you good with punching the clock until you punch out of this life?
Here’s a generalized reality of the likely tradeoffs for making the money you want, doing the work you want, how often you want, within the general economic roles of capital workers (owners/investors) & labor workers (professionals/tradespeople)…
Capital Workers
- High-End: Self-Determined Pay / Self-Determined Work / Self-Determined Time
- Mid-End: Self-Determined Pay / Self-Determined Work / Pre-Determined Time
- Low-End: Self-Determined Pay / Pre-Determined Work / Pre-Determined Time
Labor Workers
- High-End: Pre-Determined Pay / Self-Determined Work / Pre-Determined Time
- Low-End: Pre-Determined Pay / Pre-Determined Work / Pre-Determined Time
I’m still a low-end capital worker, where I’m still developing base assets and the opportunity determines my personal work & time. I’ll one day become the high-end capital worker of my dreams. For now, back to the fucking business building. 
My life is a video game who’s target market is 18-35 year old females. It’s super fun, girls… You get to win bonus shopping sprees for cool clothes and the game even comes with a joystick that has a turbo mode!! Just remember to cup the bottom of the joystick for extra structural support as you score with it. Game on, babe.
I don’t know about yours, but my reality is acting so simulated lately. I call fake on this shit.
Exactly one year ago, today, I was in bed all day crying and extremely depressed. This went on for multiple weeks, every day, because I had lost ALL purpose & meaning for my entire life. A few weeks later, I fortunately discovered new meaning for life in the everyday enjoyment of one’s personal life and emerged with a new hedonistic identity & purpose. I’m still totally in love with this really fun new version of me. It is all about being raw with my true inner self for the purpose of experiencing my personal desires & enjoying my experience of life.
You know, I see a lot of youthful people of today spending a fair amount of time embracing the more hedonistic, eccentric, & edgy sides of themselves (good), as best as they currently know them. However, I also see most all of these same people turn on a dime and “professionalize” themselves when in the presence of traditional grownups and on the job (say “Fuck you!“), even going so far as to disincentive friends who persist on in hedonistic self-expression. Where is the fucking backbone in most two-faced young people who have one foot in the game of their fun desires and one foot stroking the cock of polite traditional society. I guess we’ll just have to wait for more confident future generations. Sigh…
I better not get into any personal legal trouble in the next couple years before the DSM-5 is published in 2013. The DSM-IV says that my alternative sexuality is a deviant mental illness, while the DSM-5 explicitly says that it is not and is fine. What a crock of ass shit much of this book of morals has been. Being gay used to be a deviant mental illness too, according to this book of Double P opinions. Embrace your desires & fetishes for heightened personal happiness. They are your human nature.
Did you know that there is no real scientific evidence for their being such a thing as a “chemical imbalance” in regards to mental illness. It was actually just a theory that one guy came up with in the 1960s, which big pharma found & ran with in order to help create a drug based business of psychiatry for the mainstream.
Yeah, real smart… Normal person feeling stressed or fearful about life’s problems? Call it a medical illness and repeatedly throw a bunch of foreign chemicals into the person’s brain for years or decades. Psychology is pretty simple overall, where either your brain hardware is truly malfunctioning (more rare) or you have an ineffective basis of personal meaning for specific things that you are believing in or operating on (very common).
Instead of digging into and resolving via personal development the subconscious meaning that screws people’s behavior & quality of life up, mainstream psychiatry bought into the efficiency & profitability of drug dealing. Quick fix mentality patients are also to blame for this failing path of mental health & well being. For a bit more understanding about the workings of the mental mind, go checkout my Simplified Model of Human Psychology.
If you always require positivity from life, then you’ll miss out on many of the pleasures within your natural dark side. Losing unique experiences of happiness… That’s not too positive, now, is it? Human desires & happiness are more dynamic than a simple basis of positivity. Explore your full human self. Go deeper.
Currently up working all night long on business development while sick with a fever & headache. Hey, one’s future doesn’t build itself.
A lot of the girls hair styles from the 1990s were hot and should totally be brought back. They were more girly but often more interesting & very hot.
The kid & adult in me are so connected, that being a kid and being an adult are often the same thing. Ageplay anyone??
If I primarily lived for other people’s expectations & happiness, then I’d have a lot more friends show up at my funeral, but I would have lived a much less happy life myself, because far less of my own most potent desires would have been consistently fulfilled throughout such a life. So I’m happy to have a few people show up or none at all.
What counts is not what’s accumulated at the end of my life (money, significance, friends, wisdom, possessions), but rather how outrageously awesome the experience of consistently living it was for me. That’s best done by openly living as my raw true self and continuously pursuing my most potent personal desires. Other people’s happiness is a nice side benefit of win/win interactions of this journey.
Looks like the hedonist within me is winning this battle that’s going on inside me. I feel like a bit of a balanced & compromised approach is taking hold. However, the hedonist is dominating, partly due to natural desire and partly thanks to some insights of how to experience more pleasure with less time/effort/people/resources.
Deep connection with “normal people” feels really good. Deep connection with “my people” feels out of this world, orgasmically transcendent. Like inhaling a cumulus cloud. By the way, where are more of my fukken peeps at on this marble?? I’m looking for you naughty little ponies.
When I was a kid (biologically), I wondered why people so adamantly dedicate much of their lives to romantic relationships and if it was truly in our pleasurable human nature or just a societal norm. Now, I clearly understand that sex & human connection are core to human nature, but long-term monogamy & the institution of marriage are not. The former are universal keys to human happiness. The latter are limited frameworks that only continuously work wonders for a handful of strange peeps. This alternative future boy will take unlimited helpings of the former, and hold the latter, please.
How many retards have you met in your life who were faking it? Could you tell??
Do you primarily follow norms that give you a normal life, or do you consistently embrace alternatives that will help maximize your life? Would strongly embracing an alternative identity or lifestyle be too weird or scary at this stage of your human experience? It used to be that way for me…big mistake. Be courageous & raw with your unique self. Highly custom is the only way to fly.
Alt Happiness is where human nature & personal development meet, fuck, & conceive.
One position I absolutely hate to put myself in is where I automatically lose in the long-term, just to save face in the short-term. I realized that living based on fear of rejection with regards to expressing my desires is exactly that. Where you might look like less of a dumbass throughout your life, but you will automatically lose a huge chunk of your happiness potential by shielding who you truly are. Most happiness in life is found through human connection via your personal desires. You don’t fulfill more of that by hiding it away.
I really like people who freely radiate their true desires. Otherwise, it is usually the many layers of fake social conditioning blocking their natural expression. It’s not always fun to have to chisel beyond the thick walls of such common people. Express yourself, don’t repress yourself. Life is really fucking short.
We all have an extraordinarily vast constellation of desires within ourselves. Hop aboard a mind machine and explore the hidden treasures of your true self. Conforming to social expectations is so 20th century. Eww, robots. I’m a new breed of pleasure bot! Upgrade your programming and heighten your happiness. It works, my sexy pony.
Some people say that my eccentric social hedonism is an off-putting personal limit for me. I say that it is one hell of an effective way to pre-qualify people who are truly down for rocking out in my world of fun. Only the coolest uncool kidz are invited to this space disco love fest!
Got to be up early tomorrow for a Russian female tennis match that I’m playing in. Very athletic & sexy with the “ova” girls.
I think I need to create a two-tier inner circle in my life, because part of me feels bad about inner circle friends that seem to drift to a state of once in a while interactions. I don’t feel like I should cut them out of my life as the emotional connection is still quite high. It’s just that the frequency of interactions is quite low. I think that’s okay as long as I formally realize it and let the relationships breathe within a secondary tier of expectation. I think I’m going to go ahead and do that now. That would currently put 3 of inner circle relationships in the first tier and 3 in the secondary tier. I think this will actually help me feel even better about the people and help me have several more awesome inner circle experiences throughout my lifetime. God, I fucking love the innovation of my inner circle!! Such a concentrated source of emotional power.
I have an idea for a new website… Each day, I’ll post a new photo of a vagina, then I’ll give in-depth analysis & commentary about it. The name… “InspectHerGadget”. Go go gadget dildo!!
I will never identify as a grownup. I will always be young at heart, and thus will never grow up, because I will always follow my heart. Suck it society!!
What do you give a person who has everything? Pleasure. Nobody tires of receiving more of it.
I’m sexy. I’m ugly. I’m naughty. I’m nice. I’m smart. I’m dumb. I’m good. I’m bad. I’m dom. I’m sub. I’m real. I’m fake. I’m boy. I’m girl. I’m…human. I’m…Brian.
Want to ride the most craziest, intellectually psychedelic, bean flicking, power tripping, techno robotic, lubed up space elevator of happiness?? Then buy a one way ticket into my mind, cause you’ll never want to leave this pleasure dome. So seriously.
If I possessed advanced math skills, then I’d be a true rocket scientist of human nature. For now, I’ll have to settle with being right in principle. I’m so dumb dumb dumb.
Last week, I had a fun email exchange with a good person who follows my blog. He contacted me and was interested in further insights of my personal transformation last year. I detailed more about the process I’ve gone through to discover & embrace the true essence of who I naturally am as a unique individual. It has probably been the most fun & worthwhile innovation of me & my entire life.
Here is an anonymized copy of the emails I personally wrote…
You can see my recent post “Simplified Model of Human Psychology” to understand this dynamic a bit better.
I used to hold back because I was too self-conscious or ultimately afraid of theoretical rejection from others, even if just subconsciously, whether via my blogging or personal interactions. I had a mindset of primarily fear & pain associated within these actions, instead of one of confidence & pleasure. If I didn’t have an established personal connection of acceptance or love with someone, then I’d feel negatively exposed & vulnerable to potential rejection by demonstrating my edginess & eccentricities.
So what changed this mental association in me from one of painful meaning to one of neutral or pleasurable meaning were some shifts in thinking about my life as well as practicing taking more & more of the actions I feared with writing & in-person communication.
Part of this for me was the personal transformation I had a year ago, which was a catalyst for taking this aspect of my life very seriously and then committing to the path of living from my natural, unfiltered identity & personality. This personal transformation was based on a philosophical distinction that changed the meaning of my life to one of primarily believing that there is only real meaning in the ongoing experience of my happiness. From the direction I was taking in life before that, this new basis of personal truth dictated that I completely & permanently reshuffle my outward identity & structure of life.
But I could have ignored this and taken the path of least resistance by playing it safe within my current comfort zone. Where the rubber met the road was in the commitment to expose myself more & more through raw self-expression. Writing is generally easier to do this with than personal interactions, because the potential rejection one fears is more visceral within the latter, compared to receiving an email or comment online of rejection for something published.
Now, my writings have always been in the context of personal blogs on my website, which probably isn’t as serious as if it was my professional trade and integrated into the earning of my living. Also, I don’t have a traditional nuclear family of my own or a professional network that is meaningfully integrated into my personal lifestyle, so that made it easier to transition the meaning of & relationships with people in my life to the public exposing of my raw identity & personality. Either way, though, the overall process would have been pretty much the same and I still could have accomplished this stage of results, given those conditions.
Here’s more of the how…
I’d sum up the approach of how with these bullet points:
- Work on finding, feeling, & defining your raw, unfiltered, natural identity & personality
- Practice writing more & more controversially based on your raw identity & personality
- Practice speaking more & more controversially based on your raw identity & personality
- Accept the potential loss of personal relationships that you care about and proactively segment your relationships
- Philosophize & debate with yourself as to how the rejection of others is a non issue for your life experience and is actually funny or pleasurable
- Seek out and enjoy thoughts, media, people, experiences that align with your natural identity & personality and reinforce the pleasure of being that
- Anchor conceptual principles of being & living through your natural identity & personality
- Embrace moments of “fuck it” inspiration and pull the trigger
Doing these has helped me clearly see the target for being my true self, disassociate pain from other people’s expressions of rejection, and associate pleasure with being & outwardly living as my raw self. The association of pleasure & disassociation of pain wouldn’t be as effective if I hadn’t worked to strip away all the bullshit and discover the pure essence of my natural identity & personality. Basing it on the essence of who I truly am allowed for my passion & desire to be set on fire through this process of personal development. Otherwise it would have been more of a struggle of everyday mechanics without this.
Now, let me break these points down a bit, into some specifics of implementation…
- Work on finding, feeling, & defining your raw, unfiltered, natural identity & personality…
As I did and most people probably do, there’s probably going to be a lot of subconscious bullshit inside trying to make you work to be something or someone that is not the raw essence of who you naturally are. The objective here is to get beyond most of this bullshit and find that true sense of unique self. Finding this will likely be a series of Ah ha! insights over time. Also, it is often about making distinctions about what you are not. At the end of the day, I didn’t find much new that was added to me. It was more about subtraction of all the bullshit in order to drill down to my natural essence of identity & personality. This takes real introspection to accomplish but is one of the most important things you could probably do, because it makes the target crystal clear, instead of going in several different ineffective directions with your pursuits over time. You could use tools like personality assessments and books to help make distinctions, but your own intuition & introspective work within yourself is ultimately going to be where you gain the most ground here. It takes real time/effort, but it is so well worth it in life to actually discover & define the essence of who & what you naturally are as a unique person.
- Practice writing more & more controversially based on your raw identity & personality…
This is obviously about gaining exposure to & doing what you want to do, but fear. Now, upfront, it doesn’t have to influence your professional or public work, if you don’t want it to. You could write very controversially privately and then decide not to publish it, or you could create a new anonymous blog where you publish these controversial thoughts without your personal identity being attached. This will help writing & publishing controversial stuff become emotionally normalized within you, where eventually you’ll be able to not be stopped with pulling the trigger on controversial stuff in your normal outlets of writing. Embrace the pleasure of your own natural identity & personality and write through it, because the pleasure will help overpower old associations of pain/fear.
Even up until a month ago, even though I had become comfortable exposing much of my raw identity & personality, I was still afraid to go off the deep end with openly expressing specific fetishes of my alternative sexuality. However, I resolved that within myself and am ready to unleash it as part of my ongoing presence. With that one, I feel like I’ve now taken care of pretty much all major general areas of resistance/fear in me as far as publishing them goes.
The funny thing is that my experience with pushing things beyond traditional norms & comfort zones, has been that people pretty much either go away in silence or engage you with increased enjoyment & connection for your presence/work. Most all of the people who won’t like you for what you’re saying/doing will not even engage you about it, because of their own personal barrier of fear or the disputing of another person’s choices just not being practically justifiable or worthwhile. Ironically, I got more shit from people before in the past when I published based on my humanitarian mission & identity. Now, I’m beyond most people’s comfort zones, so they usually won’t touch it when they don’t like it. Obviously, some people, mainly celebrities, are openly & harshly ridiculed for expressing themselves, but I’ve decided that living as my true self without compromise is worth just about anything, including a whole bunch of people out there flaming what I express/publish, if it ever came to that. The intense connection with myself & others who love me for it is more than worth it for me now.
- Practice speaking more & more controversially based on your raw identity & personality…
This is also obviously about gaining exposure to & doing what you want to do, but fear. You can also train up to more controversial in-person interactions by practicing in more comfortable arenas & scenarios upfront. Even consistently speaking aloud in the privacy of your home/car/office/etc and pretending to make controversial conversations & speeches with others will actually improve your confidence. I’ve done this by habit for much of my life and it does have real impact, compared to keeping it bottled up mentally. Beyond that, you can communicate controversially with others in easier ways, such as via email, or with people in your life that you’re already more comfortable with. For example, I could practice a bit more right here & now by throwing in a random “BUTT FUCK” in the middle of this. Obviously, my identity & personality might lend itself to more raunchy & eccentric stuff than others, but it’s the underlying principle of this that counts. Doing more & more of this practice, will allow your comfort zone to expand. All of the other steps will have productive impact on this area of confidence as well. Also, embrace the pleasure of your own natural identity & personality and communicate through it, because the pleasure will help overpower old associations of pain/fear.
- Accept the potential loss of personal relationships that you care about and proactively segment your relationships…
Since going down this path, I’ve lost some relationships with family, friends, & acquaintances because they no longer like me. I’m totally fine with that and actually encourage it because it means that they’ve never liked the true me to begin with. I don’t want that in my life. I want people who genuinely like me for the raw version of who I naturally am. That totally authentic & deep connection with people is what makes me most happy & fulfilled. I understand that the psychology, identities, beliefs, & personalities of people are not always going to match up & connect well. And this is especially true if you openly embrace & live from the edgy & eccentric parts of yourself as well, since we still have a society that tries to punish & suppress some of these non-harmful aspects of human nature. So I view relationships now much less through conventional perspectives and much more through a Darwinian process of allowing genuinely authentic connections with people to prove themselves naturally viable over time based on the raw identities & personalities of myself & them. If who we are doesn’t naturally match up and consistently increase both of our happiness in life, then we shouldn’t waste the space, energy, & emotion of each other’s lives…no matter if we’ve emotionally connected on some other basis in the past.
Also, I proactively filter connections & relationships with people in my life. The biggest aspect of this has been the establishment of an “inner circle” within my life. These are the people (6 currently) who I have truly deep & authentic connection with in this world, where I can also just be my raw self. Beyond the walls of this inner circle, I don’t deeply invest myself. I still enjoy connecting in meaningful ways with others beyond my inner circle, but I don’t really care if they reject me harshly, since I view life through my inner circle. It is like I’ve placed my amazing inner circle relationships in front of me within my field of vision and the rest of the world is behind me where I can’t perceive them. So it’s emotionally serious within my inner circle who are deeply qualified people. And it is all about playing for fun out in the world with everybody else. This has been a great innovation for reframing the fundamental meaning & experience with people in my life, in a way that allows me to be my raw, natural self, and enjoy it with much less care about other people’s rejection.
- Philosophize & debate with yourself as to how the rejection of others is a non issue for your life experience and is actually funny or pleasurable…
To help disassociate pain from people’s potential rejection, reinforce perspectives of how their rejection really doesn’t mean anything for your life. For example, I remind myself how these people aren’t even a true part of my personal life (inner circle), how their words are fleeting and evaporate from existence moments after they are released from their body, how other people wouldn’t care or would laugh at what they said, how the meaning of life for me completely trumps these words of others and whether I like it or not they don’t actually have weight, etc, etc. In fact, you can, and I think should, work to associate some pleasurable & fun perspectives to the experience of others rejecting you for being yourself in life. Part of me enjoys the attention, enjoys diagnosing their psychology, and enjoys looking at them as people who are lost & screwed up when it comes to what life is about, etc, etc. All of this ammo I’ve built up can help wipeout emotional charge of other people’s expressions of rejection.
- Seek out and enjoy thoughts, media, people, experiences that align with your natural identity & personality and reinforce the pleasure of being that…
The more pleasurable experiences that align with who you uniquely are that you can consistently have, the more it will help cultivate & reinforce your universal living of it. It might take a bit of effort to seek this stuff out but it isn’t that hard. If you don’t already, then allow yourself to consistently fantasize & visualize about your most potent personal desires within your mind. Use the internet to search out media, such as music, movies, art, writings, pictures, videos, etc, that richly invoke the thoughts, feelings, & desires that fit within the raw essence of your true self. Seek out people & events via the internet and locally who are living these things that intersect with who you truly are. These are fairly easy & straightforward ways of conditioning your natural identity & personality with pleasure, in order to strengthen it.
- Anchor conceptual principles of being & living through your natural identity & personality…
As you’ll notice on my website, I consistently post distinctions that I make about being & living in ways that I believe in. Beyond putting myself out there for fun & connection with other likeminded people, this is also about me anchoring these beliefs deeper into myself. Whether I publish them or not, I put effort into considering & appreciating distinctions that strengthen the justification & method of being & living through my natural self. When other less genuine perspectives are offered to me by life to conform to something else other than my natural self & what makes me happy, they have much less to nil influence in throwing me off because of all the reinforcement I’ve been doing with what I truly believe in.
- Embrace moments of “fuck it” inspiration and pull the trigger…
Lastly, I’ve really noticeably accelerated my progress by opportunistically embracing brief moments when I’m in a mindset where I can feel/say “fuck it” to resistance with doing something I want to do. Such as publishing certain posts on my website, saying certain edgy things to people, or doing something odd or crazy in a social setting. In the moment of inspiration of feeling/saying “fuck it”, I then immediately take action and pull the trigger on doing it. Without embracing these moments, I would have normally waited around longer in my life to take similar actions that I’ve wanted to. Immediately after taking action in these moments, my comfort zone expanded and I’ve created personal references to being a person who has been there & done that, which makes it much easier to do it again & again in the future, if I’d like to.
By waking up each day and engaging in these things, I was able to predictably shift the experience of raw self-expression from one of primarily fear & pain to one of primarily confidence & pleasure. I think it could predictably work for most other people as well, if done consistently and with an engaged mindset of commitment to the desired outcome. It only took me about 9 months to get where I am now, with noticeable leaps along the way. My journey has probably been accelerated a bit by my instance of personal transformation last year. But, even if this journey had taken a few short years, the process still would have been interesting enough with enough jumps of progress to keep me going. It has potentially been the most fun & rewarding innovation of myself & my life…as it should be, since happily being & living as one’s raw true self is going to feel this way for most all human beings, I think. It’s about personal liberation to just be & do precisely what makes you happy each moment without constantly compromising it because of outside forces. I still fear rejection and hold back in small subconscious ways at times. This is subconscious human nature that no human has ever overcome 100%, but there is obviously a huge night & day difference with who I am now versus before. Now, I get to overwhelmingly just be me!!
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It’s certainly a mindset change, combined with processes, beliefs, & experiences that predictably help shift one’s mindset.
Yeah, with people, it has become all about true, natural, win/win connection based on deeper custom attributes & desires. Not just everyday friendliness, support, & common interests. I now even go so far as to kick others out of my life where it is clear that we don’t have that personally tailored connection. My inner circle provides a super concentrated source of emotional connection, happiness, & freedom to be myself. Emotionally holding on to more general connections with people only hinders my ability to be my raw self and tenaciously pursue custom experiences of potent pleasure & happiness through that.
You’ve probably heard the general saying of how the five closest people in your life are who you become like. Well, I don’t think that’s super accurate, but it is true that people’s presence, especially who you care for or look up to, definitely has a real impact on your mindset and types of behavior you take on. The main goal here is to have people who naturally inspire you to be your true natural self versus inhibiting that motivation by you feeling self-conscious or embarrassed around them.
Yeah, my personal transformation happened a year ago that strongly catalyzed all of this for me. I had long been very into psychology, philosophy, & personal development before then, so I had a very well developed foundation of knowing myself. But I went off the deep end with stripping away all conditioning & traditional beliefs in order to get down to the core essence of my raw identity & personality.
What sparked this event was I randomly heard a statistic about humanity one day last June and my mind interpreted that statistic in a way that blew away the humanitarian meaning I had given my life for years before then. The statistic was that there have been over 100,000,000,000 people throughout humanity’s history. When I heard this, my mind instantly grabbed on to the perspective that over 100,000,000,000 humans have lived & died already, and all the lives of our current generation of a few billion will soon be dead & gone too, where overall the lives of even billions of people across centuries or millennia are contained within only a blip of humanity’s total time. I didn’t just logically understand this reality then, I viscerally felt it in my gut. And I couldn’t feel that anything in my life had meaning while feeling as though my whole life, the lives of billions currently living, and the lives of many many more billions in the future is all contained in a fleeting moment, compared to the overarching timespan of humanity’s absolute historical & future existence. It feels like being a fruit fly that lives for a half-day, then dies. I wouldn’t have cared, if I had a strong religious belief or just perceived this in an intellectual way. Rather, it hit me extremely hard emotionally, as pure of an experience as tangibly living one’s everyday life.
So I lost ALL meaning for my entire life (not just my humanitarian mission), became extremely depressed, and was in bed deeply thinking & crying about it all for weeks. I’m not the type of person who is comfortable simply choosing what to believe in. I have to thoroughly test it in my intellect and genuinely believe it in my gut. A few weeks later I discovered that there is the authentically natural sense & feeling of meaning within the everyday emotional enjoyment of life, regardless of formal purpose or source/method. So maximization of my own personal happiness became my new purpose in life. Since external development of stuff didn’t matter to me anymore, I then was left with the only option to look inward for what naturally gave me pleasure & happiness by my own human nature. From there, I followed the process that I described before, and discovered what truly seems to be the essence of who I uniquely am along with many attributes & desires that naturally light me up as an emotional human being.
I get to just do what I want and can be polarizing with my presence & self-expression, in order to become more of a magnet for my personal desires.
Living life this way feels really good & right now!!
Generally, to guys, the most sexually attractive body parts on girls are their face, hair, chest, legs, & ass. On a face, the eyes & mouth are the most potentially attractive features. Very luscious!!
I’m happy to report that after six tough months of technical development, I now have my hands on version 1.0 of a custom information system for my marketing business. This is going to help automate a lot of functions as well as strategically track & analyze KPIs. Headed to the next level, yo!
This year, I did some basic research on cultural generations here in the western world (Gen Z, Gen Y, Gen X, Baby Boomer, Silent, Greatest, Lost). I think there is a trend of newer generations being less easy to interact with on simple terms than previous generations, however, more easy to interact with on more complex & emotional terms. Also, newer generations seem to becoming more hedonistically fun. I think this is all because of ongoing cultural shifts of people personally opening up, becoming more complex, and embracing more of their human nature, compared to fake polite societies & traditions of past. This trend makes me happy! Let’s ride it all the way into the Age of Personal Exploration.
Humanity has explored planet earth. We’ve explored outer space. We’ve explored the cell & atom. Let’s get on with it and explore our individual selves. There’s a vast amount of personal identity & personal desires within us that most people leave untapped. This is why we still largely live in inauthentic, disconnected, unhappy societies, despite wealth & technology. If we want happiness, then we need to know ourselves & connect with others on a deeper level of genuine identity, emotion, & desire, instead of defaulting to surface level mainstream norms. This means entering the Age of Personal Exploration as a society where it becomes the social norm to explore & live from your deeper & truer self… eccentricities, dark sides, fetishes, and all. Who the hell is with me??
Want to know a really effective tactic for removing personal feelings of hurt & hate for others, that you will never ever hear from anyone else as long as you live?? Okay…
When feelings of hurt or hate come up within you about bad exchanges you’ve had with people in the past, visualize and pretend in your mind that you are having sex with the person and enjoying it. It doesn’t matter if you’re even attracted to their gender, looks, or personality. Just viscerally fuck their body in your mind and be grossed out and laugh at all of the mental sensations of it while focusing in on the details. In fact, you can mentally gather up all the people who you have lingering bad feelings with and have one big fuck fest orgy with them all in your mind!
This literal mindfuck changes the meaning of the person’s presence in your mind and removes experiences of bad feelings as they happen. Try it out. Told you that you won’t be getting these social & psychological gems from anyone else!!
Being an open human being helps you discover more of your hidden personal desires. That means more happiness for you. Be brave and open that beautiful, crazy, eccentric shit up within you. I guarantee you’ll have one fan of the real you here.
Is it ultimately more fun to watch people shy away from raw open honesty or from the dumbass strategy?? Hmmm…
With really close personal relationships, usually people are confident/comfortable enough to make selfish one-sided demands of the other person that they wouldn’t to dare do with others in life. We’ve all experienced this and done it, I’m sure.
As self-interested beings, I’m very curious how necessary this selfish mindset is to create & maintain real emotional depth of connection within personal relationships. I don’t believe it is absolutely necessary at all (more) and closeness isn’t always proportionate to emotional depth (more).
However, since these elements of closeness, selfishness, & depth seem to be so pervasively correlated throughout humanity, I’m wondering what the extent of the practical reality of this being present and having influence upon personal relationships is?
Hey you… I love you. Now do this shit work for me! Do it.
I think in reality most people trade their life visions for better current day opportunities that present themselves. I’ve always been the type of person who easily sacrifices better short-term opportunities to continue strategically pursuing my highest visions of life. On the surface, this often looks crazy to most people, yet at the end of the day their good life of traditional success is not my dream life, so I can’t pigeonhole myself. I think it is better to slowly align myself with peak opportunities to hit a few sequential economic & social homeruns and skyrocket my life beyond most people’s wildest dreams. I think I’m positioned quite well now. We will see!
Beyond this simulated reality that I play in, what type of life form am I? Why did I choose to play this game as a human being? How sexy of my alien self!
A close friend of mine recently asked what some of my favorite music is, so I put together this list…
- Hate To Love
Aly & AJ:
- Potential Breakup Song
Annie:
- Chewing Gum
- Me Plus One
- Heartbeat
- Anniemal
AQUA:
- My Oh My
- Barbie Girl
- Doctor Jones
- Lollipop (Candyman)
Ashlee Simpson:
- La La
- Love For Me
- Boyfriend
- Coming Back For More
ATB:
- Ecstacy
ATC:
- Around The World
- So Magical
- Mind Machine
Avril Lavigne:
- Losing Grip
- Sk8er Boi
- Unwanted
- Take Me Away
- Together
- He Wasn’t
- Forgotten
- Freak Out
- Girlfriend
- I Can Do Better
- Runaway
- Hot
- I Don’t Have to Try
- Black Star
- What The Hell
- Push
- Darlin’
- Alice
- Bad Reputation
Backstreet Boys:
- Incomplete
Basshunter:
- Now You’re Gone
Bastien:
- Restlessness
Benny Benassi:
- I Love My Sex
- Who’s Your Daddy
Black Eyed Peas:
- Don’t Phunk with My Heart
- My Humps
- I Gotta Feeling
Britney Spears:
- Selfish
- Till The World Ends
- I Wanna Go
- (Drop Dead) Beautiful
- Seal It With a Kiss
- Criminal
- Up N’ Down
- 3
- Oops!…I Did It Again
- I’m a Slave 4 U
- Boys
- Bombastic Love
- Showdown
- Breathe On Me
- Toxic
- Brave New Girl
- Radar
- Circus
- Shattered Glass
- Lucky
- Outrageous
- I’ve Just Begun (Having My Fun)
Cascada:
- Everytime We Touch
- Evacuate the Dancefloor
Christina Aguilera:
- Dirrty
- Not Myself Tonight
- Fighter
Crystal Castles:
- Courtship Dating
Daft Punk:
- One More Time
- Technologic
- Television Rules The Nation
Damone:
- Out Here All Night
- Tonight
Deadmau5:
- Ghosts n Stuff
Dido:
- White Flag
Eiffel 65:
- Blue (Da Ba Dee)
Enrique Iglesias:
- I Like It
- Tonight I’m Lovin You
Enya:
- Caribbean Blue
Evanescence:
- Going Under
- Everybody’s Fool
- Tourniquet
- Taking Over Me
- Whisper
- Eternal
Fefe Dobson:
- Take Me Away
Fergie:
- Fergalicious
- Glamorous
Flo Rida:
- Right Round
- Club Can’t Handle Me
Flyleaf:
- I’m So Sick
- Fully Alive
- Cassie
- I’m Sorry
Fuel:
- Hemorrhage (In My Hands)
Gary Jules:
- Mad World
Hayden Panettiere:
- Your New Girlfriend
Hilary Duff:
- So Yesterday
- Party Up
- Why Not
- Our Lips Are Sealed
- Beat of My Heart
iiO:
- Rapture
Inna:
- Fly Like You Do It
Jameerah:
- All Eyes On Me
Jewel:
- Stand
- Intuition
Julia Kova:
- Konfetny Boy
- Beep Beep
- Sorry
Katy Perry:
- Teenage Dream
- Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F)
- Firework
- Peacock
- Circle The Drain
- E.T.
Kelly Clarkson:
- Since U Been Gone
- Behind Thees Hazel Eyes
- Hear Me
Kesha:
- We R Who We R
- Take It Off
- Blah Blah Blah
- Cannibal
- Blow
- Grow A Pear
- Chain Reaction
- Animal [Billboard Remix]
- Frenzy
- Your Love Is My Drug
- TiK ToK
- Dinosaur
- Boots & Boys
- Bootycall
- Radio Radio Radio
- Heart Fall Out
- Never Know ‘Bout Love (Trashy Boy)
- Butterscotch 2.0
- A Bad Girl’s Lament
- Red Lipstick
- Boys
- Who Do You Love
- Ur Not My Daddy
- Backing Up With You
- (Fuck Him) He’s a DJ
- Crazy Girl
- Mouth
- Paper Airplane
- Boy Like You
- Last Weekend
- Miami Night
- Best Friend’s Boyfriend
- Disgusting
- Hearts on Fire
- Run Devil Run
- This Love
- Uncensored
Kim Leoni:
- Medicine
Kim Sozzi:
- Break Up
Kylie Minogue:
- Light Years
- Come Into My World
- Slow
- Red Blooded Woman
Lady Gaga:
- Just Dance
- Lovegame
- Poker Face
- I Like It Rough
- Bad Romance
- Kaboom
- Fashion
- Born This Way
- Judas
- Scheibe
- Heavy Metal Lover
La Roux:
- In For The Kill
- Quicksand
- Bulletproof
- I’m Not Your Toy
- Growing Pains
Lasgo:
- Tonight
- Gone
Lilly Allen:
- Everyone’s At It
- The Fear
Lindsay Lohan:
- First
- Nobody Til You
- Speak
- To Know Your Name
- Magnet
Linkin Park:
- One Step Closer
- Crawling
Little Boots:
- Remedy
- Mathematics
- New In Town
- Click
- Symmetry
Madonna:
- Justify My Love
- Erotica
- Human Nature
- Don’t Tell Me
- American Life
- I’m So Stupid
- Love Profusion
- Nobody Knows Me
- Give It 2 Me
- Miles Away
- She’s Not Me
- Devil Wouldn’t Recognize You
- Revolver
Mannheim Steamroller:
- Deck The Halls (Welsh Ayre)
- Good King Wenceslas (Traditon…
- Hark! The Herald Angels Sing
Miley Cyrus:
- Liberty Walk
- Who Owns My Heart
- Robot
- Can’t Be Tamed
- Two More Lonely People
- Permanent December
- Fly On The Wall
- The Other Side of Me
- We Got The Party
- Nobody’s Perfect
- Old Blue Jeans
- Life’s What You Make It
- East Northumberland High
Motorcycle:
- As The Rush Comes
N Sync:
- Digital Get Down
Natasha Bedingfield:
- I’m a Bomb
- Piece of Your Heart
- If You’re Gonna
Nelly Furtado:
- Promiscuous
Paris Hilton:
- Nothing In This World
- I Want You
Paulina Rubio:
- Don’t Say Goodbye
- Y Yo Sigo Aqui
Pitbull:
- Hey Baby (Drop It to the Floor)
POD:
- Alive
- Youth of the Nation
Rachel Stevens:
- Solid
- So Good
- Negotiate With Love
- Dumb Dumb
Rihanna:
- Shut Up and Drive
- Disturbia
- Live Your Life
- Hard
- Rockstar 101
- Rude Boy [Remix]
- S&M
- Only Girl (In The World)
- Cheers (Drink To That)
- Who’s That Chick
Robyn:
- With Every Heartbeat
- In My Eyes
- Love Kills
- We Dance To The Beat
- Criminal Intent
- Stars 4-Ever
- Cobrastyle
Selena Gomez:
- Falling Down
- Kiss & Tell
- Stop and Erase
- Tell Me Something I Don’t Know
- A Year Without Rain
- Intuition
- Spotlight
September:
- La La La (Never Give It Up)
- Mary Ann
- Star Generation
- Cry For You
- End of the Rainbow
- Candy Love
- Until I Die
- Start It Up
- Freaking Out
- Party In My Head
- Resuscitate Me
- Ricochet
- Bump and Grind
- Mikrofonkat
Shana Vanguarde:
- Gimme Gimme Gimme
Sheryl Crow:
- All i Wanna Do
Snake River Conspiracy:
- Lovesong
Sugarbabes:
- Hole In The Head
Sylvia Tosun:
- Push n Pull
t.A.T.u.:
- All About Us
- Not Gonna Get Us
- All The Things She Said
- Show Me Love
- How Soon Is Now
- Stars
- Friend or Foe
- Sacrifice
- Perfect Enemy
- Dangerous and Moving
- White Robe
- You And I
- Little People
- Fly on The Wall
- Time of the Moon
- Cosmos (Outer Space)
Taio Cruz:
- Dynamite
- Higher
Taylor Swift:
- You Belong With Me
- Jump Then Fall
- Untouchable
- Forever & Always [Piano Version]
- Love Story
The B-52s:
- Love Shack
The Pussycat Dolls:
- Don’t Cha
- Beep
- Hot Stuff
- Flirt
The Verve:
- Bitter Sweet Symphony
Timberland:
- The Way I Are
Usher:
- Yeah!
Velvet:
- Take My Body Close
- Fix Me
Willa Ford:
- I Wanna Be Bad
Wynter Gordon:
- Dirty Talk
Vinyl Shakerz:
- One Night in Bangkok
Zoe Badwi:
- Freefallin’
I overwhelmingly like female vocals. Good lyrics aren’t necessary with a pleasurable voice & sound. I guess the female voice is like fetish candy to my skull.
Also, there are a lot of older songs from the 80s back through the 50s that I love, along with niche vocal trance & electronic stuff, but I’ve never collected them or memorized the artists too well yet.
My love for music only began in the past five years or so and has hedonistically exploded just this past year.
If you can be persuaded to break your morals, then those weren’t your true morals to begin with.
This begs the question… Which of your stated morals would you ultimately be willing to break? Come on, don’t lie, at least not to yourself.
Does your love ever turn to anger or jealousy when you are not loved back on similar terms? Do you really want others to “love” you in this same way based on their own terms? Are free individual human beings really meant to be indefinitely obligated to each other in personal relationships? Does a two way street mean that each side must mirror the other one? What about instead creating relationships based on personal freedom & win/win personal desires for the aim of continuously increased happiness of each person? Do people really have to obligate & compromise their lives in order to have this type of connection?
But girl I really want to see your face and breasts while doing it doggy style & reverse cowgirl. I guess some more mirrors are in order.
One good way to flesh out your subconscious desires is, while taking in emotive media like music & movies, explore into the moments of peak feeling that are induced in order to understand various feelings & experiences that you would actually want out of life more. Capture & analyze the feelings & images that come to your mind. Sense the subtle distinctions of desire in you from these.
The music you love most is so pleasurable because it exploits the personal meaning in your subconscious and allows you to mentally experience some of your personal desires. I’m pleasuring myself right now.
Music is like drugs in that it is hedonistically pleasure inducing and can also be enjoyed socially.
If you want to truly understand a lot about life, then engage in philosophy. If you want to truly know a few things for certain, then engage in science. If you just want to learn a lot about life, then simply take in the knowledge of others.
There is no good standard prescription for heightened happiness out there. You see, happiness is custom, and lies only within the experience of your personal desires. If you want to experience a life full of happiness, then you need to consistently look deep inside and start precisely identifying more of the vast web of subconscious desires within you. Beyond what desires you’re already aware of, this is the source of your potential for emotional pleasure in life. Make your ongoing life experience into an experience of your most potent evergreen desires, like how you love to connect with certain types of people, not pursuing surface level tokens of success & status. This is the real path to lifelong heightened happiness.
If you really want genuine success with something, then here are the general upgrades you could make for finding & pursuing an effective strategy for it…
…Visualize
……Trial & Error
………Study Others
…………Expert Guidance
……………Become the Expert
Also, with each upgrade, each prior approach will become much more effective.
One of the absolute best ways to develop yourself for happiness in life is becoming a person who is extremely open to your own raw desires of visceral pleasure. Follow this prescription and you’ll thank me for the suggestion when your fear & resistance has melted away. Then you won’t need to live a double life of having one foot in & one out of the game of what gives you pleasure & happiness. The rejection of others won’t hard stop you from potent desires any longer.
As a free, independent, non-jealous human being, I just want the connection & sex of romantic relationships, not the obligation & compromise. The latter are not happiness increasing for me.
The lifestyle I primarily like to engage in is what you might call… “naughty erotic transcendent social hedonism” …the transcendence is the cherry that makes it just so beautifully luscious, my love. A song like Heavy Metal Lover by Lady Gaga puts me into this vibe, along with a fair amount of vocal trance music.
Throughout my past, I’ve pushed my mental perspective to the most insane extremes of humanity, partly because it is in my nature and partly because I wanted to seriously expand myself & my comfort zone. So forgive me if I look upon you as being a bit of a girl scout. That’s better than me completely shell shocking your virgin mind, right? Would that type of mindfuck constitute as rape??
I want your whiskey mouth all over my blonde south. Dirty pony I can’t wait to hose you down.
If you could have a peak experience of synergy between passionate sex, emotive music, & exotic visuals, you could then viscerally understand what I mean by a mindset I call “transcendence” where the perception of reality melts away and you enter a new dimension of your mind and happiness. The state of transcendence is where I’d like to permanently reside for infinity. The grass really is greener in outer space.
Every 1/3 of a second, a new human being is born, which also means that about every 1/3 of a second another human is coming of age. Snap your fingers rapidly three times per second nonstop to understand the sheer volume of this reality.
What type of people do you align with in life? There’s probably multiple snaps per day for the number of new human beings who are coming into alignment with being your type. Simply start letting more of them know you exist and how you want to connect!
If you’d like to know the gist of my personal relationship views…
I believe in “Free Love” & “More Love”.
Free Love: We are all ultimately individuals consistently out for happiness, so don’t place restrictions on freedom of love & sex in life.
More Love: More of a good thing is more of a good thing, keep adding to your experience of happiness, via your most potent desires of love & sex.
Of course, there are practical hurdles, such as trust, families, & STDs, but genuine personal happiness from human connection itself is agnostic of these hurdles, so don’t make hurdles into restricting obligations & laws that cut you off from your desires. Life is shorter than most people acknowledge, so I say be entrepreneurial and maximize your life experience while you are still even alive & human.
If you’d like to know the gist of my personal religious, political, & lifestyle views…
I am an agnostic, libertarian, hedonist.
How many people are you going to know in your entire lifetime? A few thousand or so? How many will you know really well? A few dozen or so?
Are you aware that over 100 million new human beings are being born every year? Probably a million or more new peeps each year in just your country alone. Over four million new peeps per year in the US, which is hundreds of thousands every month and over ten thousand new Americans being born each new day.
That means there’s way more brand new people being created each new day than you’ll be able to know in your whole lifetime.
There is always an overly abundant fresh batch of human beings coming of age to select from for connection, friendship, & love. With this reality in mind, why should anyone settle for bad or incompatible relationships in life?
Human connection is the #1 pillar of personal happiness, so why skimp on the people you choose to make part of your ongoing life experience?
Funny how grownups typically want to distance their own identity from newer generations, due to culture & lifestyle. However, I find myself wanting to continually embrace new waves of youth culture. I’ve only lived through two or three of these youth culture waves so far with the 80s, 90s, & 2000s, but I think that I will always be this way as I am very future minded and modern society seems to be getting more permissive & hedonistic as time goes on. Although I wish I was there for 1960s counterculture. If I had to rate them though, the 1980s and the late 2000s to present have resonated with me the most so far. To the fucking future!!
If I were born a century before I was, then I’d be totally down with the flapper girls of the Roaring Twenties.
If I were born a half-century before I was, then I’d be totally down with the free love hippie girls of the Summer of Love & 1960s counterculture movement.
I so want to have a new movement of hedonistic rebellion within our modern culture of the 21st century internet generation. That would be so awesome!!
A traditional mainstream perspective & identity automatically sets a person back about 500 average human years in their potential for wisdom & understanding of themselves & life.
I think that using the term “passion”, when trying to discover one’s passions in life is very misguiding. The word passion is often too formal & official relative to people’s identity for things they like. Instead, using a term like “desire” can open up a lot more insight into what you want in life.
For example, if I asked myself what my passions are, I wouldn’t respond with saying that I have a real passion for fucking cool chicks, even if I do. However, I would definitely say that I desire to fuck cool chicks if asked what I desire.
Happiness comes from consistently making progress on the fulfillment of your ongoing desires. Knowing what you desire, without qualifying it for the sake of society or other people in your life is where your own unique source of personal happiness is at.
Watching my favorite movie Wall Street (1987) while writing an awesome blog post about the predictable achievement of financial freedom.
If you live your life in a way where it peaks decades before your death, then you’re doing it fundamentally wrong.
