I use a pink toothbrush. Does this make me a girl? I hope so.

This year has seemed extra long because I’ve undergone so many changes. January 1st feels like it was about 2 years ago right now. It’s true that a lot of dynamic new experiences stretches out the feeling of time.

So I got inspired today to reevaluate my long-term life vision. I created a bullet point list of the primary pursuits that I see myself engaging in over the next 50+ years of my life. Here’s the categorized list…

Capitalist - Private Equity - Opportunistic Deals - Enterprise Assets Entrepreneurship - Paradigm Shifts - Cool Projects Social Hedonism - Everyday Super Fun - Creative Self-Expression - Travel Adventures - Alt Sexuality - Professional Kid - Viper Squad Entourage - Personal Relationships - Training Academy - Bubble World - Transcendence

Society Hacking - Fuck Brian Brand - Social & Legal Causes Intellectual - Infrastructural - Achievement Interests - Human Nature - Human Biology Personal Development - Systemization - Biology - Physique - No Fear - Appreciation - Self-Discovery

I’d say that the pursuits of utmost importance for me are…

- Capitalist …(esp. Private Equity for UHNWI Status)
- Social Hedonism …(esp. My Primary Social Desires)
- Biology …(esp. Brain & Organ Health for Life Extension)

…which, surprise, surprise, again reflects my three major personal callings.

This year, I’ve gone from hating the people & culture of Double P’s (professionals & puritans), to more recently loving them for it.

It’s because they maintain the high standard of forbiddenness of the fruit that I so deeply enjoy. Without the mainstream thickheaded morals of Double P’s, my fruit would become commonplace and not taste near as sweet (see this note).

So I want to once again formally thank you Double P’s who oh so vehemently defend your sense of traditional mainstream life. You are the one’s who make violating that into a taboo and therefore an extra special experience for a naughty narratophilic fetishist like me. God bless you!!

You know, the meaning of “family fun” can be quite relative.

Watching low quality, semi-blurry copies of movies from the 1980s and before, like my favorite movie Wall Street (1987), often makes it feel more authentic, like I’m back in the 80s again.

When I think about it, ever since I was a little kid (biologically), I’ve always been a hedonistic, narratophilic, exhibitionistic, fetishistic, little nympho.

As a little kid (biologically), I always wanted to have sex with a chick in one of those circular clothes racks at department stores that you could hide inside of.

As a little kid (biologically), I so always wanted to run into the women’s bathroom and “sneak a peak”.

Straight raw fucking like a hardcore porn star is not near as fun as making kinky hedonistic love with people you like. Intimate play can make it much more intoxicating.

I remember the feeling of impulsive materialistic hedonism when I was a kid (biologically) and would go around town buying ultra cool sports cards. This is probably the same psychology that keeps the stereotypical trend of women’s shopping going strong. Ultimately, I found social hedonism to be much more luscious in life.

Major opportunities are often major liabilities to your ideals. Some of my ideals, like with my experience of personal identity, self-expression, & human connection, are vital to my maximal happiness. Be aware.

Forbiddenness & taboos can up one’s experience of pleasure A LOT. However, does it feeling forbidden require you to simultaneously feel fear of rejection? These two pursuits of mine, with taboos and no fear, might just be at fundamental odds on some level. I might have to strategically cultivate more conditional fear within myself to keep the naughty pleasure high.

I swear… You were born to be a hedonist.

You are just so damn cute. Oh, the naughty little things I would do with you. Mmmmm.

Think about private sector financing for a minute. Here’s an elementary cross-section understanding of things being financed out in the world…

- Least Available Financing: As an individual, you can finance the purchase of depreciating consumer items, like clothes, gadgets, vacations, etc. Typically in the thousands of dollars.

- More Available Financing: As an individual, you can finance the purchase of appreciating consumer assets, like a home, an education, etc. Typically in the hundreds of thousands of dollars.

- Most Available Financing: As an established business operation, you can finance the purchase of depreciating & appreciating business assets & resources, like virtually anything, including labor, equipment, real estate, licenses, ownership deals, etc. Typically in the millions of dollars.

What’s the common thread here and why is there such a difference in financing available?

In every case, it is primarily about investing in the future earnings of the borrower.

The primary operational purpose of businesses is to make money by producing value & selling to others, and can expand operations beyond one person, so they are often able to get a lot more financing than individual consumers.

Individuals, like all other entities, generally need to bring in money to continue operating (living) as well, so institutions are willing to finance their purchases, based on the expected future earnings of the individual.

Along with that, certain purchases add value to the individual’s financial position, so they are able to get more financing for these types of things. For example, real estate predictably appreciates in economic value over time and education typically helps raise the earning potential of an individual as a worker in commerce.

Want lots more financing? Make a case for the level, timeframe, & predictability of your expected earnings. See (RTP).

As a budding capitalist, I’m very interested in ways to personally build wealth using the following…

- Leveraged Buyouts
- M&A and Rollups
- Takeovers and Restructurings
- Corp Dev & Biz Dev via Shared Portfolio Services

Ever since I decided to take on a serious business achievement again towards the end of this July, I’ve seemingly lost much of my readily available ability to execute on my “instant reality reset” tactic that mentally & emotionally resets my mind. My overall life has feel more like a heavier obligation again and negative shit is more sticky with me. The pursuit of this achievement is worth it, but I really want to figure out how to get back to the consistently lighthearted feeling I had earlier this year and continue with the big business pursuits.

Growing up in 1980s America, it had more of a gritty feel to the city & social environment than it does today in the 2nd decade of the 21st century. Life just feels more soft & plasticized today than it did in the ’80s. To me, there are good aspects of this and there are bad, but largely good as I long for that vibe to life again. If I can feel a distinct difference within 30 short years, then I’m sure this feeling is more extreme for previous generations.

However, while watching modern Russian movies, like Vykrutasy (2011), I noticed a blending of modern day soft society with a more gritty 1980s feel that I experienced during my childhood here in America. I’m guessing & hoping that the experience of several places in Russia is actually like this. A blending of these two vibes to life in Russia would be a fucking awesome experience for me.

One more reason to be a certified Russophile.

Damn humanity, you’ve pegged me again!! I am most certainly one of these… (Russophile/Russophilia). I sure do love me some Russians, especially those oh so sexy Russian chicks. Did you know that they even come via mail order?

I’ve long had a subtle attraction to Russia since I was a kid (biologically), however, it has gone off the charts into full-blown love & lust since last year. I’ve also become somewhat of a Europhile too, especially for Eastern Europe. Ultimately, though, the most pleasure is concentrated on my love for Russia. I’m slowly learning the Russian language and plan to live there in the future. My second home. My comrades.

Chasing girls at camp and playing with older high school & college chicks in lakes & pools were among some of my most potent experiences of sexual desire as a little kid (biologically). As a kid, the sensory overload of hedonistic desire goes off the fucking charts in your body. Unfortunately, I never got to fulfill any of my desires as a semi-innocent little kid. I suppose the market of willingness for statutory pedo rape is a tough one to capitalize on as a kid. At least I can recreate the fantasy with sexual ageplay for the rest of my life.

Wrap your head around a daughter being a mommy to her daddy as a twisted double incest ageplay role. A very luscious mindfucking, indeed.

People say they want to hear the truth, then 99% of them consistently try to escape it when it isn’t lollipops & unicorns to their ears. Yeah, 99%, which probably means YOU too!! Most all people just want to be told something that will make them feel good. I wish I was better at giving people what they want but I have this extra truth gene in my DNA that 99% of people don’t seem to have. Silly little tainted fuckers.

I often find it really beneficial to objectify myself as a super human pleasure bot. Forget being a traditionally valued & cared for soul of a person. I’m here for my maximal human potential and happiness. Exploit every last bit of me for that baby. When that is the objective and I’m in control of myself, I often love being objectified like this. When you figure out what specifically produces this for you, then it becomes a pure issue of economics. That’s hot.

Here’s a few really good ways to connect with me that I really enjoy and seem to consistently work well, even via phone & internet with people, although face to face is always the best for feeling an emotional connection.

My Life & Self-Improvement

My biggest obsession is my own life. I am a hedonist & achiever and seek to maximize most everything I value in life. I’m always strategizing & architecting my life and self. I’m quite an open person too, so you can just jump in and engage me from a perspective of helping me become more optimal with what really matters to me, like my identity & self-discovery, personal relationships, pleasurable experiences, building wealth, etc. I focus on this stuff 24/7, so it’s almost always a good time. Show me that you get me and can offer good insights and I will feel a greater personal affinity for you.

Personal Psychology

I also identify as a psychologist and am constantly observing & hacking away on human nature, both mine, and others. I love deep introspecting with people into the core meaning, motivations, & emotions of our lives. This often overlaps with talking about my life & self-improvement too, along with that of others’, obviously. This is a super potent way to get to know someone and often makes some people uneasy. However, I totally love depth with people. The more depth & intimacy in connecting another human being the better. I want to know your insides.

Intellectual Hacking

A good part of me is totally a crazed intellectual and loves figuring things out in the world in a technical way. I’m a rigorous philosopher by nature, pretty much always have been since I was a kid. So having deep intellectual discussions about a subject of interest is often very stimulating & fun to me, especially when related to human nature, human achievement, or other subjects I regularly mention. It’s like a professional sport to me, so it’s fun when I find capable people who can keep up and maybe end up teaching me something solid.

Hedonistic Play

Of course it is often super fun to engage my playful side too. My enjoyment of this one is more dependent on the personality of the other person(s). I like naughty stuff, sexual stuff, mischievous stuff, raunchy stuff, rebellious stuff, etc. But I also can enjoy simple stuff, beautiful stuff, loving stuff, elegant stuff, pleasant stuff, etc. The darker naughtier stuff is just more of a predictable straight shot to pleasurable emotions in me, but I am quite dynamic overall.

Of course, there are plenty of other ways, but these are a few predictable ones that I thought of off the top of my brain.

There’s always a deeper level to go to. The question is, are you gonna go there with me? I’m going there no matter what. Grab my hand and let’s have an adventure together.

I think a core way to boost worker performance is to pay them daily, instead of every couple weeks or so. This way, a tangible reward is linked to them waking up and going to work for you each day, compared to just working to rack up an intangible tally of billable hours. Also, each day’s pay should likely be given to them at the end of the day, because you want to leave a motivating imprint for the perpetual next time, versus a solely demotivating end of day memory of hard work, and many people would feel worse about slacking off if they got paid after putting in a mediocre day. And, of course, performance bonuses layered on top of this could really help too. I’m actually going to implement this strategy in my companies.

Getting off on that is not weird. It’s just hedonistic. But, ironically, I also get off on you thinking I’m weird.

Naughty play lyrics. Yeah, me likey…

I so got a bad case of phonography addication (narratophilia).

Phonography by Britney Spears

We’re not so different you and me
Cause we both share our share of obscenities
And everybody’s got some freaky tendencies
Hidden or admitted, cause we all got needs
And I make no apologies
I’m into phonography
Let’s talk about biology
Make believe you’re next to me
Phonography, phonography
Talk that sexy talk to me
Phonography, phonography
Dirty talking, call it phonography

Phonography by Britney Spears (2008)

Why do so many people shy away from truth? You humans are sick.

If there’s things you really want to be a part of your life experience but you aren’t in a position to make them happen for yourself yet, then consider setting up a “dreamshare” deal.

A dreamshare being like a timeshare, but instead of sharing a piece of real estate with other people, you pool together the necessary resources & actions that allow you and however many likeminded others to fulfill your mutual desires in life. Obviously, the less people needed, the easier it will likely be to make a dreamshare happen & keep it intact.

For example, do you have a strong personal desire for something that takes a lot more money than you currently make, where somebody else with some money might really want the same thing? If it takes work or management to sustain it as desired, maybe there’s a way you could get a partner who will gladly put up the money, if you can operate it effectively, and you both get to share in the desired experience of it.

Dreamsharing has the potential to be done with just about anything you want in life. It may take getting outside the box in your normal thinking, but assume it can be done, then think about what other types of people in the world share your strongest personal desires, what is needed to make the desires a reality, and how you & others could setup a win/win dreamshare deal together.

One of the keys here is to suspend trying to figure out how you can get what you want all for yourself and instead start thinking about how you can get what you want along with others who want the same thing.

I think I need to start strategizing this way again with my primary social desires.

Often, I overcomplicate my marketing models & strategies with relative algorithmic mumbo jumbo. Sometimes, it just comes down to continually giving them the fundamentals of what they want. If continually doing that, why would the bulk of them not continue buying? Their lives just probably aren’t that dynamic.

The way you get yourself & other peeps off is way too vanilla. Let me teach you how to expertly suck on the dark cherry.

Fuck other people’s dumb rules & regulations. If someone obsesses for over a decade in studying the subject of, increasing their skills in, and applying their expertise in the field of technology, are they not considered a capable “technologist” then? Of course they are.

If that is the case in a subject like technology, then it is true for psychology as well. This is what I’ve done within psychology, so I’m going to consider myself a psychologist. Not a psychiatrist who is trained to solve people’s mental illness, although I probably could in a lot of cases, but rather an expert on the mind in what I generally refer to as “human nature psychology”.

I typically excel in areas relating to depth psychology, human motivation, philosophy of mind, positive psychology, social psychology, i-o psychology, etc. See a couple of my psychology posts here & here.

I’ve always been extremely interested in observing & analyzing human behavior, even as a little kid (biologically). So I identify as a psychologist. Not as a career, but as an expertise I’ve acquired, continue to work on regularly, and put to good use in my own personal life & business career. Though I’m an independent polymath & philosopher, so of course I’m not going to fit the traditional academic & scientific mold with things like this. Still got the serious chops at the end of the day though.

That said, I’m still a complete dumbass of a human being.

What if you actually found out that this was a simulated reality and every other person was a simulated character? What crazy stuff would you do with us then? Wanna fuck me? Wanna kill me? Wanna eat me? Wanna love me? Hello human nature.

Being loving towards someone you love is a great thing. However, I’m not so sure about making that loving affection into the ongoing idealized standard for the relationship, either consciously or unconsciously. I think the odds are better that your human nature will reject being loving too often or intensely to not sabotage the ideal or use as an indirect weapon against the other person.

I think a more adaptable & predictably sustained relationship connection ideal would be having fun. This doesn’t suppress the deep love, but also doesn’t make that love into a strict rule when your human nature desires to indulge in other colors of human connection.

Are you aware of this reality in your relationship(s)? Is your partner(s)? I think it’s too critical not to openly observe & discuss.

Do you have a personal mentality of ‘working for’ or ‘selling to’ other people??

If you want upper middle-class success, like being a well paid doctor, lawyer, accountant, self-employed business owner, etc, then focus on doing good work for more people. People will then seek you out and gladly pay you for your labor, either directly as a service or indirectly through your product.

However, if you want to live life as a seriously successful HNWI, and be economically free, then you’ve likely got to make A LOT more sales happen in your business life. It’s a totally different game when selling far beyond what you can personally service with your own labor. You must become a capital worker, not a labor worker. You must effect sales & strike deals on a meaningfully larger scale.

Did you women know that you have the aggregate power of your sexuality to make guys predictably go transvestite and dress & act as shemales?? Yup! You do. You chicks are so desirable to guys, that if a good percentage of women started demanding guys look & act feminine, then you would be able to predictably convert the masculinity of society in a very short timeframe. You were born with some pretty big social guns. Fire at will.

So there’s this dynamic in modern young life where almost all guys want attractive girls. However, a good portion of guys don’t currently have the social self-confidence to make it a reality and seriously hold themselves back with how they interact with them, if at all. Because attractive girls receive so much attention & slobbering over by tons of other guys already, it is an extra tough scenario of competition & rejection for a fearful guy to approach & relate to an attractive chick. This creates a personal situation of feeling helpless, lonely, & depressed for many many many young guys out there.

However, I don’t ultimately feel as sorry for these guys as I do for girls. You see, you guys don’t have strong general expectations from the opposite sex to be very physically attractive. This means that you can predictably get over your fear, achieve success, become a uniquely interesting person in life, and still be highly sought after as you get older & older.

As human aging takes place, women are more pervasively judged as unattractive as they age. So when I see a hot young girl flaunting her candy ass-ets, winning the attention & desire of 9/10 guys, and rejecting many of them, even me at times (yeah i know, it happens)… I don’t choose to call the girl a “bitch” or “slut”, because I firmly believe she has a right to be openly attractive and should live it up as much as she can, while she still can in such a fun way. You, douche bag, have your whole life to become & be super attractive to these sexy women, because many more of them will allow you to be attractive without visually killer, sexually nubile, unmaintainable human looks.

I naturally gravitate towards nontraditional, exotic concepts, especially those that are unrestricted in nature. So the concept of being pansexual is intriguing to me, however, an exclusive sexual preference for girls is hardwired into me at this point. I could go through the pain of working to change that over years of time, but too much of me is disgusted by dudes on the surface of such a notion.

If I get the opportunity of serious life extension and get to potentially live for a millennium, then I’d probably try to expand into a pansexual. However, with such a short expected lifespan of around 100 years, it’s just not worth it to me. I guess I’m far too happy enough with only being attracted to girl humans for now.

I received an awesome letter from a person that I briefly met years ago who told me how meeting me has really changed his life since then. Very heart warming words to receive.

The way I know how to personally be an influential dealmaker is with great enthusiasm. But I feel like this style fundamentally makes people believe that I don’t have the technical business chops that I do. This perception of others’ perception causes a greater fear of rejection in my dealmaking.

One key way I’m planning on overcoming this dynamic is by externalizing my technical business chops. I’m planning to create a public display of my capabilities that will allow me to be super enthusiastic & personal with people in business to influence them, yet there will be no confusion of my advanced technical chops every time they see my public display of work. However, this could take a few years to produce such a solid creation. Worth it though.

Stop worrying about yourself. Stop worrying about what they’ll say. And just go do it.

When I was a little kid (biologically), I used to look at life much more as a game I was playing. Then, as I became an adult (biologically), my view on life got more & more serious, even for purposes of fun, pleasure, & achievement. Of course, this is natural, but I think a dominant game mindset in life would be way more effective for these purposes.

When I reflect upon my childhood game mindset towards life, I recall being at an ice rink where I played ice hockey in the late 1980s. I was into Ninja Turtles then and my imagination was off the charts crazy. This is just the top memory of mine connected to this mindset and a shortcut for me to truly feel it in a deep way.

I also had my strategic thinking mindset back then and always thought about how to achieve cool stuff. The difference was that life was a game to me and I was living in my own storybook reality.

I NEEEEEEEEEED to recreate this mindset as a core part of my daily reality, because it is one of the most effective ways to live that I’ve ever encountered.

I still live in a modern stone age of humanity, because we can barely hack our biology & still have to live life in a physical reality, instead of a simulated reality. We’re on the cusp of breakthroughs, though. If I’m lucky, I hope to still be alive & blissed out with nanobot induced pleasure 1000+ years from now.

Notably higher levels of achievement often involve doing more things that you really don’t enjoy to get there. Doing them likely means taking on greater personal pain. In order to sustain this sharp pain, and actually follow through, you should counteract it by injecting some more serious personal pleasure into your life. Often times, inherent motivation & initial progress won’t be enough to ultimately succeed. You need a happiness shield for this personal battle.

Consider what core needs & potent desires of yours aren’t yet being consistently fulfilled in your life. These are the things that can keep your emotions & momentum up which will convert into to resiliency for you. Also, consider how you can strategically involve others into your achievement process where their presence will continuously spur you on with overcoming your key challenges.

Maybe one could generally look at social settings through a simple economics lens. Extroverts generally are the primary producers in group interactions. Introverts generally primarily consume. No wonder extroverts often win more of others’ interest. They produce much more for the market. However, that’s the quantitative supply side of the equation, but it still has to meet people’s demands, or else it doesn’t matter how much one produces. That’s how an introvert can win more interest, by producing a presence of interactions that are more qualitatively tailored to what the market wants to experience.

Frozen baby snow peas in my butthole feels like heaven & hell all at once.

If emotional connection & self-expression is an overly weird thing between you & others, then choose an identity & path in life that makes it natural & expected between you & others in a way that you will love it. Accept and become that version of you. You’ll up your life’s happiness like 10X that way. This is proving true in my life, for sure.

Some of the most important base intellectual skills for life that I know of are to be able to accurately determine the value, odds, & relationship of things.

Often, certain areas of life take specialized technical knowledge, however, that is why I so intensely study subjects of human nature & human achievement, because they give the highest bang for the buck across most important areas of life.

So clean & evergreen is this happiness machine!

Is it any coincidence that trance is the most transcendent of music?? Bliss me out with pleasure baby!!

One of the most limiting or enabling factors of your life will be the depth of connection you consistently experience with those around you. Demand more & more depth with others and you will see yourself reach new paradigms of happiness potential. Stay shallow with others and that’s exactly what you’ll forever be.

I just came up with an new idea for a contract clause that will help in all of my future business agreements. So cool!! Yeah, I’m such a nerdzo like that.

The fact that women have almost universally sought out and/or accepted the routine wearing of notably sexier underwear over the past few decades says a lot about human nature, when psychoanalyzed.

Every single day, people are out there searching for me online. Kind of strange to think about the details behind them doing this. Am I that fucking interesting? It’s an interesting reality of my life.

Is it easier to get rich mining gold or selling tools to miners? I used to have a miner’s mentality where I’d seek to produce the pot of gold, end of the rainbow, type of solutions in my business ventures. Making your business responsible for highly desired end results, like financial success or personal development, is a tough game.

Instead of taking responsibility for the bottom-line end results of your customers’ pursuits, I think it is often a better business model to simply provide a predictably producible component of what they’re pursuing that doesn’t tie your business to the end results. Remember that most people lose out in gold rushes, just like in most business & personal life pursuits. However, you can still predictably profit on all of their ongoing attempts.

I don’t care how big of a level you play on in any other game of life, whether business, politics, sports, entertainment, intellectual, technical, social, etc. You’ll still be a loser in this human life compared to those of us that play in the big leagues of personal pleasure & happiness (elite hedonism). Your big time success in other areas, at most, only gets you into the minor leagues of hedonism. Tough luck, kid. Better luck in your next life.